Saved

Sometimes 

I feel lost

But then

I am always saved

I have three lifelines

Which keep me alive

Art,

Poetry

And

You.

Gratitude poetry

An year has ended

So that another could begin 

And I am so much thankful 

For this year which has ended

For the year which will now begin

For the people who left

For the people who stayed 

For the people who entered 

For the memories which were created

For the scars that proved me strong

For the support I have recieved 

For the dreams I continue to see

For the faith that's still unshakable 

For the love which never fades

For the hopes that continue to rise

And most importantly 

For the spirit of never giving up

For welcoming everything with open heart

For continuing living life 

And feeling thankful for everything that is

माना ज़रा

माना ज़रा कम आप बोलते हो 

एहसासों को लफ़्ज़ों में नहीं तोलते हो 

पर हमें तो रहता है इन्तेज़ार फ़िर भी 

राज़ अपने दिल के क्यूँ नहीं खोलते हो 

हम तो बादल में बैठे हैं मज़े में 

आप जाने जमीं पर क्या टटोलते हो 

दुनिया रह जायेगी, साथ होगा हमसफ़र 

इश्क़ को जो कोई दौलतों से मोलते हो 

गुल कई होंगे गुलशन में मगर 

इस गुल में खुशबू आप घोलते हो 

Successful Sunday

Sometimes I wonder what a successful day is for me. I had a successful Sunday yesterday, well, kind of successful. 

I woke up early in the morning, naturally and not by a alarm clock or phone ring. I felt well slept, refreshed, energized and motivated. I didn't procrastinate as I always do. I didn't lose myself in mundane chores of everyday household this day. 

I had set-up a nice working space for myself. I had put on some on my favorite music and some of 90's Bollywood music too (I must tell you they are an absolute mood up-lifter if you have never tried it, works like a charm). I made a delicious cold coffee for myself; rich, dark, strong, creamy, chocolaty, exactly the way I like it. I held brush after a long time. I tried blobbing paints on paper. I was not really very happy with my first painting attempt of that morning. But I was glad I was learning, I learnt what style worked for me, and what not. I didn't feel scared to try on new things. I started another painting. 

And then, I had to meet this beautiful friend for lunch. It was a simple lunch but oh don't we just love to hangout simply sometimes. Making travel plans, eating, a little shopping may be and most importantly, admiring and supporting each other. 

I continued my day watching old movies on Television and resuming painting. It felt nice. It felt relieved. It felt peace. I was really happy with my second painting I must tell you. I decided to treat myself a little and I put on my headphones and headed out to try some street food. I rarely go out alone to eat, but I love doing that. It feels great, like I have a power and I am enough. 

And those times, I was only wondering that how important it is to have such days, with no drama in it. I agree life is a very long, complicated, dramatic movie. The casting never ends. Genre keeps on changing. One moment you think its a romance genre and other you find it being drama. Its comedy but its sometimes mystery and crime too. Well, I keep trying for making it a musical with romance and comedy and very little drama too of-course, like a pinch of salt in it. And then, some drama did happen. What is this movie called life without drama in it, eh? 

So, I had a kind of successful Sunday yesterday. But it had me thinking, how I want all my life's days like! Being happy and feeling peaceful isn't really too difficult, is it ? But when an external force tries to change your initial inertia and cause you to change your movie's genre, what should you do? Resist? Change? Don't give a damn and keep on enjoying your own musical?! Trying to figure out this last bit... 

I hope you all had a successful Sunday too. Would love to hear what makes it work for you. 

The Greatest Showman

“The noblest art is that of making others happy”
― P.T. Barnum

I know I am shooting words in the sky
But may be someone out there
Will feel the way I do.
Music clouding all my senses
And dance flowing in the veins,
I am so emotionally overwhelmed,
Seeing people in love
Living a life of passion
Having sparkle in their eyes
Bright smile on faces
And feet always following rhythm of the souls.
The Greatest Showman, they called him
I don't know Barnum, but Jackman surely is
He makes me fall in love everytime,
With him, with art, with every single thing of beauty,
And all those amazingly beautiful people out there
Who just not only put up on a show
They make their lives motto to spread happiness.
I am so emotionally overwhelmed,
Music clouding all my senses
And dance flowing in the veins.
I know I am shooting words in the sky
But may be someone out there
Will feel the way I do.

दुआ में उठते हाथ

दुआ में उठते हाथ, तू इबादत है मेरी 

हाँ तू सजदा है मेरा, तू आदत है मेरी 

मेरे लबों की मुस्कान, नींद-ओ-चैन है मेरी 

तू ख़याल है मेरे, तू चाहत है मेरी 

मैं तेरा अक़्स, तू वज़ूद है मेरा 

तू गुरूर है मेरा, तू हिमाक़त है मेरी 

तू तड़प है मेरी, तू दवा है मेरी 

तू सुरूर है मेरा, तू शरारत है मेरी 

तू नींद में पीठ पर थपकी है मेरी 

तू अरमान है मेरे, तू राहत है मेरी 

Walk alone

Walk alone. Listen. Breathe. 
Inhale. Exhale. Breathe. 

Nature will calm your mind. 
It will relax your body. 
It will replenish your soul.

If you need a mind detox, 
Just look beyond that life of concrete. 
A beautiful sky will show up,
In all its beauty and wonderfulness. 
The hues of pink and yellow and orange and blues, 
And ever so mesmerizing silhouettes of dry branches 
Perching on the trees only to appear standing 
In praise and awe of the spectacular symphony the sky is playing. 

Look beyond the shackles of social networking and internet media. 
Don't give in to the desire of texting or browsing Facebook 
When you can enjoy a swing 
Silently observing its delicate motions. 

Feel the breeze. 
If you try, you can listen to a silent wind too. 
If you try, cold winters wont feel harsh to you. 
You may not find a lot of birds chirping now, 
But if you can still see the twinkling of the stars, 
Feel glad that you are still alive. 

If you look closely, you will see a life too, 
Sprouting out from a shell, 
Because the world isn't dead yet. 
If you look closely, you may have a glimpse of yourself too, 
Because you aren't dead yet either.

Life and Death

Today I don't want to believe that I'm going to last for 75 years.
I want to feel death. I want to feel what it is like to die?!

I do not mean to say that I want to die. I am not sick, I am not depressed, I am not defeated; and if you must think, I am not bored either. It is not like life is missing big adventures or surprises, I just do not feel that I am living.

Lub-Dub Lub-Dub Lub-Dub

That is how heart beats, that is how we know we are living. I do not listen to that sound. I want to immerse in that music which is above all the worldly pleasures. I want to feel my every heartbeat.

I want to feel the miracle - the miracle of life. Each day when I wake up, I want to be thankful for being still alive. I want to feel every time I breathe, knowing that I am fully alive.

I want to feel free, being capable of choosing every moment of my life to spend my own way. To be able to sing or dance like no one's keeping an eye on me. To be able to jump and try to touch the sky. To believe that I can fly, if not today, someday. I want to live my way with no people staring at me as I am different. Coz I want to tell them all - Yes, I am different. And so are you! What you think of insanity is only a measure for freedom. You dare not to be insane, coz you dare not to be free.

I want to feel a fear of death once; and then let go of all the fears, the fear of hatred, the fear of love, the fear of death, the fear of life!

Good Morning!

Good morning!

It's a beautiful morning, isn't it?

What's beautiful about this morning, do you ask? What isn't, I ask!

The beautiful golden sun rays coming through the window and shining on your skin, a breeze carrying the smell of earth, birds chirping everywhere and music in every sound if you listen with your soul!

Why rush? There are many who needs to, but you don't! You don't have to wake up because the world will stop, if you don't! You have to wake up because its time you start enjoying the mornings rather than counting it as another curse!

You are one of those lucky souls who don't have to wake up early to minister to the sick, to carry food for the mass or guard the boundaries to protect people and things.

Your job is easy. All you need to do is not worry and breathe. Take it slowly. Relax. And start the day with a smile. Can you do that?

You are lucky, because you have time to read this post. May be you are still in your bed, or taking a break from your never ending chores, or travelling in a train or metro. Feel this morning. Yes, this is like every other morning. There is nothing exceptional about today, except that you are trying to smile, aren't you? I will be happy to know that you smile everyday!

Why rush? Take a moment to close your eyes, not sleep, but close your eyes. And say this to yourself. YES! I AM READY!

Whatever it may be, the day will come, you don't have to anticipate everything in the world. But feel ready. In this moment. 

Once, while travelling, I found a little girl, 5 years old, just so happy. She wanted to play with me. So we played. We were playing and her uncle scolded her a bit for being too naughty with random stranger people. She started crying in a moment. I hugged her and she was happy again the next moment. Life is just this simple. Its always in the present, the moment which is NOW! We hold on to our grudges too long, that they become a lot of emotions. They become resentment, they become regret. They become anger, annoyance and blame. They self-destruct our emotional system. We need to feel gratitude. Hope and satisfaction will follow. 

Are you feeling grateful for little things?

You all are grateful for food that you get, do you enjoy every morsel of it that you eat? Do you realize every flavor? There is a lot to feel, if you just eat when you eat.

There is a lot to relish if you are just with the person that you are, and not lost in your world of worries. Do you ever look in the eyes and talk? Do you try to empathize and not just throw mere opinions? 

Look around. There is a whole world just waiting to be cherished. With all its little insignificant moments to offer. Those moments make our life beautiful.

The day will come, you can not control it. But enjoy your morning. And the peace that it will provide to your soul. 

Have a good morning! :)

Take a moment!

Take a moment - to pause, to relax, to give time to yourself.
Take a moment - just to breathe.
Take a moment - and listen to a calm and soothing song.
Take a moment - and actually enjoy your breakfast.
Take a moment - and pamper yourself.
Take a moment - to take care of yourself.
Take a moment - when everything's done and when everything's not done.
Take a moment - and not just rush to do the next thing in the list.
Take a moment - to just express gratitude... for everything.
Take a moment - because may be that's all you need.
Take a moment - because may be that's all you have got.

Carpe Diem!

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I wake up sometimes
In the middle of a dream
I need not it
Its just a shadow
Your touch of an inch
A little whisper
Sound of your breath
And pillow of an arm
Make me believe
That life is true
And much beautiful
For you are there

दोस्त

ए दोस्त
जा रहे हो तुम
क्या एसे  ही चले जाओगे

सब आज तुमसे कुछ न कुछ कह रहें  हैं
बता रहें  हैं तुम्हें
कि  तुम उन्हें कितना याद आओगे

आज जब तुम जा रहे हो
और सब तुमसे दिल की बात कह रहें  हैं
मेरे पास तुमसे कुछ कहने के लिए है ही नहीं
क्या है ऐसा
जो मुझे शब्दों में कहना पड़े कि तुम समझ जाओ?

तुम तो जा रहे हो
पर लग ही नहीं रहा मुझे ऐसा
बदला ही क्या है अभी यहाँ

पर अब ज़रूर कम हो जायेंगे थोड़े ठहाके
रूठना मनाना और छेड़खानी ज़रा फ़ीकी लगेगी
पता नहीं इतनी परवाह भी अब कौन करेगा मेरी

सन्डे के दिन जब बोरियत हो तो नहीं होगी अब लड़ाई
और रातों को भी सोने से पहले नहीं कह सकूंगी
"पानी दा रंग" गाना बजाने के लिए
और हर मुश्किल में पता नहीं
अब किसे करना होगा याद

कहीं एक कोना ऐसा भी होगा
जहाँ से निकलते हुए हर रोज़ जायेगी नज़र
पर नहीं होगे वहाँ तुम
क्यूंकि जा रहे हो तुम

सोच रही हूँ क्या कहूँ क्या नहीं
कुछ बातें शायद कह देने से कम हो जायें
मुझे पता है तुम समझते हो उन्हें

मैं लिखे जा रही हूँ
पर अभी भी लग नहीं रहा
कि सच में जा रहे हो तुम
अब शायद कल जब नहीं होगे तुम
तब लगेगा कि तुम चले गए हो
तुम्हारी बड़ी याद आयेगी
वापिस जल्दी आना लौटके ..

Happy Friendship Day

Hi Friends,
Many years ago I wrote this for 7 no's Friendship Day's party.. Today I wanna tell you once again.. I'm really blessed to have friends like you in my life :)

Aaj din hai dosti ka,
Dosti ka ek paigaam,
Sirk aapke naam...

Dosti, ek rishta,
Samudra sa vishaal,
Dosti, wo aasmaan,
Jiski chhanv tale,
Har gam sirf guzra hua kal,
Aur har khushi,
Ek sunahra pal.
Dosti, ek mahki si hawa,
Ek khubsurat ghazal,
Ek atoot vishwas,
Ek pyara ahsaas.
Aur dost...
Har pyaare pal ke saathi,
Sachche saathi,
Dost, teri dosti, tere pyaar ko salaam...

Wonderful Miracles :)

Just a little attempt to frame a few words in a thread, so that I can remember forever my most favorite scenes from a movie..

Its so wonderful
In a boat amid the vast sea
Where its calm and silent
And you can feel the peace in water.

Its so wonderful
To feel the air of freedom
Running through your veins
Where you are like a bird high in the sky.

Its so wonderful
To watch the horses run
And be able to believe
That if there is any heaven, it is here on this earth :)

The Lost Passions

Thanking everyone around me who is inspiring me every now and then to lighten up, brighten up...

Finding again the lost passions,

The poems without the words,

The love for colors,

And the beauty of nature.

Appreciating the sunshine,

And the little pour of rain,

And a lovely long walk on the sands.

Wondering about the dreams,

Creating illusions of reality,

Where anything can be true,

Where anything can be mine...

Finding again the lost passions,

And loving myself all over again...

Love you Ma, Love you Papa

For my loving parents...

(on their 25th wedding anniversary)

April 19th, 2009

Ishwar ki di deh ko insaan banaya aapne,

Hamaare saath apna ek chhota sansaar sajaaya aapne,

Jeevan diya aapne, jeena sikhaya aapne,

Kaise insaan bane khubsoorat nageena, sikhaya aapne,

Khud jitni bhi mushkilein ho, aap sadaa muskuraate rahe,

Hamein har khushi ko khushi se baantna sikhaya aapne,

Kitna pyar aap karte hain hum sab se,

Hamein insaaniyat se pyar karna sikhaya aapne,

Aapne apne jeevan me koi jashn na manaaya,

Hamein jeevan ka jashn manaana sikhaya aapne,

Kitne pal nyochhavar kiye, aapne din-raat hamaare liye,

Hamein aasmaan ki bulandiyaan chhuna sikhana aapne,

Aapne apne sapne hamaari aankhon me dekhe,

Sapne hakeekat karne ki himmat, jutaana sikhaya aapne,

Aapko kuch kah sakein hum, itne to shabda bhi nahi,

Apni bhavnayein vyakta karna sikhaya aapne,

Aaj hum jo bhi hain, bas aapki duayein hain,

Yoon garva se seena uthana, bhi sikhaya aapne,

Jeevan diya aapne, jeena sikhaya aapne...

Me and My Beliefs

God's most special child...I believe it to the core of my heart.

A perfect Dreamer... who hates to see reality. Yet I know, its there...bigger and bitter.

A typical Leo... bold, audacious, love to be praised, magnetic, hide emotions well, hates when anyone ignore, love to help others.....

I believe things shouldn't be ideal, because they vanish as soon as they reached that state.

I believe everything in the universe is relative, symmetrical, binary... and having multi-dimensions.

I believe 'Life' is the greatest gift God has given to us, we must not waste it.

I believe answer to many of my questions is a truth... and that is "I'm human."

I believe that before dying if I help atleast one person in the world to live life happily just because I'm there... then my living will be successful.

I believe I know myself better each time than I knew it the last time. If you find something new, don't be surprised... I'm equally astonished.

One more philosophy to add to my beliefs:

When you have a beautiful mind, everything become beautiful for you. And when you feel everything beautiful, life become beautiful too.... that's why I feel "A Beautiful Mind is Enough!"

I'm living... because I believe it!

I'm happy... because I believe that too!

I believe, I see, and that all happens to me :)

Install Love, It Is Really Quite Simple

This is an article I came across while reading THE SPEAKING TREE column, Times of India newspaper. I found it worth sharing to all this world.

PS: It's freeware :) Share it with everyone you meet.

Enjoy Love!

Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready, as long as you walk me through the steps. Tell me now, what do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programmes running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: Er... what programmes are running, can you list them for me?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, you can go right ahead. Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programmes.

Love will eventually override Low Self-esteem with a module of its own called High Self-esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programmes prevent Love from being properly installed.

Tell me, can you turn those off?

Customer: Umm... let me see. Actually, I don't know how to turn them off. Can yo tell me how? Please help.

Tech Support: With pleasure. It's really quite simple. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Wow, Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base programme. It's quite basic. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, 'Error - Programme not run on external components.' What should I do now?

Tech support: Don't worry, relax. It means that the Love programme is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive Self; Realise Your Worth; and Acknowledge Your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done. That wasn't too difficult.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the 'My Heart' directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smiles is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes a while, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to pass it and its various modules around to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, thank you so much.

Ecstasy

I'm feeling happy... I've set the state of my mind to that condition.

Thinking that, that I'm happy, I'm happy :)

Wow... sometimes its just pleasant to know that life is simple and easy.

My Beautiful Mind is helping me a lottt.....

I'm feeling gratitude & wanna thank all the pleasant & non-pleasant things happened to me.

Whatever they've taught me & I've learnt so far from them, I am rejuvenated, elated, & feeling the very special essence of my being....

There is nothing particular to mention, for this whole universe is so great... that's the power of cosmic rays... that's the power of being self !!!

Oh! I'm feeling passion for this world...this life !

I don't wanna become a sage now. This materialistic world is something more than money & comfort... its love, desires, dreams & passions... Am I really raptured in delight? Dunno, but I'm flying among the clouds & I wanna be in this long-lasting dream forever... with open eyes...not seeing anything... but just flying me !!!

Forever !

For Someone Special......... FRIEND

Maine Khuda se kaha ek din,
Yeh zindagi hi kya kisi dost ke bin.

Duniya yeh hai bahut hi badi,
Zindagi ka kya, mehmaan do ghadi.
Zeene ke liye chahiye mazaa,
Nahi koi soonepan ki saza,
Chahiye to bas ek apna sa pyar,
Pyar jo bana de zindagi khushgawar,
Pyar jo har ek gum ko bhula de,
Pyar jo saare toofaan sula de,
Pyar mita de jo raahon ke kaante,
Pyar jo bas khushiyaan hi khushiyaan baante.
Aisa pyar kahaan milega,
Khushiyon ka phool kahaan khilega.
Yeh phool to bas khila sakta hai dost,
Khushi ko zindagi se mila sakta hai dost,
Dost hi kar sakta hai har raah mumkin,
Yeh zindagi hi kya kisi dost ke bin,
Maine khuda se kaha ek din.

Khuda ne kaha- Dekh aas paas,
Milenge tujhe bhi dost kai khas,
Dost kai sachche, dost kai nek,
Dost nahi ek, par dost anek.
Dost jagate jo jeene ki chah,
Dost dikhate jo jeene ki raah,
Dost bhula dete pal me jo gum,
Dost lutate jo pyar athaah,
Dost hansaate jo pal-pal har pal,
Dost bhula dete pal me jo kal,
Dost jo dukh me dete bhi kandhaa,
Aur macha dete pal me hulchul,
Dost jo tujhse sharaarat bhi karte,
Tere rooth jane se bhi hain darte,
Teri naadaniyon ko dete kar maaf,
Dost teri har adaa par jo marte.
Dekh, duniya dekh, dost kitne yahaan beshumaar,
Sun kya kahti fizaayen, dost rahe hain pukaar.

Khuda ne kaha, maine suna, dekha na jaane kahaan kahaan,
Dhoondha to paya, doston se sarabore tha saara jahaan,
Khush thi main ab, rahi thi chahak,
Doston se rahi thi, jo waadiyaan mahak.
Chhodenge na dosti ki kabhi raah, hai yeh waada,
Aur chaah hai bas itni, chahe raat ho ya din,
Ye zindagi na ho kisi dost ke bin,
Maine khuda se kaha ek din.