Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The Lost Passions


Thanking everyone around me who is inspiring me every now and then to lighten up, brighten up...

Finding again the lost passions,
The poems without the words,
The love for colors,
And the beauty of nature.
Appreciating the sunshine,
And the little pour of rain,
And a lovely long walk on the sands.
Wondering about the dreams,
Creating illusions of reality,
Where anything can be true,
Where anything can be mine...

Finding again the lost passions,
And loving myself all over again...

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Desires... For Freedom!


The first ever piece of poetry from the beautiful mind...

Ek panchhi, ek swatantra mann,
Karta nabh tal swachhand vicharan,
Kuch chaah nahi, koi raah nahi,
Bas kahna hai sandesh yahi,
Kya rakha hai kisi gulaami me,
Jhoothi shaan ki badnaami me,
Jeena ho to khul ke pankh failaao,
Door gagan ko bhi chhoo jao,
Ye hoti hai aazadi ki talab,
Jo poorn kare jeewan ka sabab.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Main saagar odhe baitha hoon...


Ret ki chataai par,
Main saagar odhe baitha hoon.
Nanhi aankhon me baadal sang bahne ke,
Sapne liye baitha hoon.

Jo baarish ho kabhi os ki,
To sooraj mera chhaata ho.
Main titliyon aur bhanwro ko,
Apna geet sunaane baitha hoon.

Main taaro ko takiya banaye,
Chaandni odhe baitha hoon.
Andhere me jugnuon ke sath,
Roshni failaaye baitha hoon.

Jo dastak de khwaab ek,
Main hawaaon me kho jaaun kahin.
Main Pariyo ke intezaar me,
Palke bichhaye baitha hoon.

Ret ki chataai par,
Main saagar odhe baitha hoon.
Nanhi aankhon me apni ek
Duniya sajaaye baitha hoon.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Khoj...


Aaj kuch gaayab hai,
Bahut khoja,
Par mil hi nahi raha..

Socha, us kamre ke kiwaad fir kholu,
Jahaan bachpan bitaya tha..
Mil gayi mujhe apni titliyon se bhari dibbi,
Wo gulaab ki sookhi pankhudiyaan,
Wo ret se bhari shishi,
Aur seepiyon ka khajaana..
Kuch patange bhi mili,
Aur kaagaz ki naav bhi..
Ek kone me ek katori rakhi thi,
Socha tha kisi raat dhoop na mile to kaam aayegi,
Ek chammach bhi rakhi thi,
Usme jharna bhar ke rakha tha..
Par jo barf ka gola saja ke rakha tha,
Uske to nishaan hi dikhte nahi ab..

Sab ojhal ho gaya hai..
Bilkul meri maasoomiyat ki tarah
Bahut khoja use..
Par kahin mil hi nahi rahi..!!


Saturday, March 20, 2010

Ho gayi hai shaam...


Arey, ye kya hua
Ye andhera, ye jaam,
Kya sach me din dhal gaya,
Kya ho gayi hai shaam?

Abhi-abhi to subah thi,
Main neend se tha jaaga,
Kuch sapne the, jo karne the poore,
Main peechhe tha unke bhaaga.

Abhi-abhi to bas pakdi thi,
Jo ghumaati mujhe sansaar,
Abhi-abhi to kadam rakha tha,
Zindagi me pahli baar.

Abhi hi to pahchaana tha,
Kya jhooth hai, kya sachchai,
Abhi-abhi to jana tha,
Kya hai rishton ko gahraayi.

Abhi-abhi to anjaane bhi
Dost banaye the,
Na jaane unke saath,
Kitne jashna manaaye the.

Abhi-abhi to seekha tha,
Banana naye naye plan,
Aur karna apni jeet ka,
Poori duniya me elaan.

Seekha tha humne jeetna,
Par seekhi bhi thi haar,
Seekha tha roothna-manaana,
Seekhi thi takraar.

Wo dosto ki mahfil,
Wo chhoti si baat,
Kuch kah di, kuch rah gayi,
Aur ho gayi raat.

Pata na chalaa tha,
Ki dhal chuka hai din,
Aur rah gayi hai sirf,
Ye raat taare gin.

Guzaar diya waqt,
Na jaane kya paane ki chaah me,
Par kho gaye hum kahin,
Us manzil ki hi raah me.

Kaise jaaye wapas,
Koi to pataa do,
Kya ye jashna ke hain jaam
Mujhe koi to bataa do?

Koi to raah dhoondhni hi padegi,
Kal subah fir jaagna hai.
Ek naye sapne ke peechhe,
Kal subah fir bhaagna hai.

Aaj to jo hua, so hua,
Abhi karte hain aaraam,
Kal fir subah aayegi,
Abhi ho gayi hai shaam.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Chhoo lo wo Unchaiyaan


Jeewan ke is anubhav me,
Kai daur aise aayenge,
Kabhi khatthe, kabhi meethe,
Kabhi Sunahre pal laayenge,
To laayenge kabhi wo,
Pal gamo ki aandhi ke,
Kabhi wo aansu, baarish
Ban ke barsaayenge.

Wo banenge vishaal baadha,
Rokenge teri raah,
Chahenge tujhe haraana,
Kamjor karke teri chaah.
Par tu ye yaad rakhna,
Aur karna ek vishwaas,
Par nahi hain tere, to kya,
Chhuna hai aakash.

Lena tu seekh sab se,
Chahe wo ho koi rekha,
Manzil nahi hai uski,
Par chalti rahe hamesha.
Dekhna tu maati ka deepak,
Aur baati ka samarpan,
Dene prakash duniya ko,
Wo jalti rahe hamesha.

Sadiyaan ho gayi, parwat bhi
Kabhi thaka nahi,
Aur mukaabla koi,
Kar sakaa nahi.
Sun ye hawaa bhi,
Kya geet gaati hai,
Faila le pankh iraado ke,
Unchaiyaan bulati hain.

Aaz tu na thakna,
Aaz tu na rukna,
Chhoo le saara aakash,
Sab hai tera apna.
Ye jeewan hai, yahaan koi
Kal nahi jaanta,
Tu ud le aaz jee bhar,
Sach kar le apna sapna.

Tu chhoo le har khushi,
Tu chhoo le manzil,
Tu chhoo le aaz ruh,
Tu chhoo le saare dil,
Tu chhoo le saara jahaan,
Tu chhoo le haseen samaa,
Tu chhoo le har unchaayi,
Tu chhoo le aasmaan...
Tu chhoo le aasmaan...
Tu chhoo le saara jahaan....

Shhhh...!!!


Shhhh....
Yahaan shor na kar,
Sun is sannaate ko,
Bahut kuch kahna chahta hai yeh,
Dekh is andhere ko,
Band aankho se,
Apni hi parchhaai dikhana chahta hai yeh.
Kitna kuch sunane ko,
Khaamoshiyo ki cheekh,
Kitna kuch dikhane ko,
Dil me dard, aansuon me gum,
Pal-pal tadapti saanse,
Chahti hain zindagi ki kaid se aazaadi,
Par ye pyasi nigaahe,
Aaz bhi ummeed karti hain sookhe huye sagar se,
Shayad koi naya aakaash,
Andhere ko cheer kar,
Kuch boond amrit, sagar ko dene wala ho,
Shayad ek toofaan, ek bijli,
Saare sannaate aur andhere ko,
Khatm kar dene wale ho,
Shayad mil rahi ho kahin se,
Kuch udhaar ki saanse,
Shayad ek nayaa sooraj,
Kahin janm lene wala ho.
Kya pata, kal kya ho?
Zindagi ret ki tarah fisal rahi hai,
Par hum kar sakte hain to kya?
Sirf ek ummeed,
Shayad zindagi samay ke sath tham jaye,
Udhaar ki saanse, maut ke khauf ko mitaa jaayen,
Ya phir...
Ek aur koshish,
Ki yahaan koi shor na ho,
Kyunki... sannaata,
Bahut kuch kahna chahta hai yeh....

Main yeh nahi hoon!


Aksar jab bhi aate jaate, hain log mujhe kuch batlaate,
Main na kah paaun kuch bhi unhe, par main hoon nahi jo wo jatlaate.

Koi mujhe sundar kahta hai, koi kahe, main hoon buddhimaan,
koi deta hai darzaa mahaan ka, par yeh main nahi, main hoon sirf insaan.

Koi kahta mujhe hai rachnakaar, koi kahe main hoon chitrakaar,
Kai log kahte hain vigyaan ki chhaatra, to kai log kahte hain sirf bekaar.

Nahin samajh sakte wo, mere rango ki udaan,
Mere sapne, mere armaan, ek panchhi ki daastaan.

Nahin samajh sakte wo, mere dil me chhipe jazbaat,
Chaand aur chaandni raat, shamaa aur barsaat.

Nahin samajh sakte wo, mere shabdo ki gahraayi,
Jalti huyi diyasalayi, bheed me bhi tanhaayi.

Nahin samajh sakte wo, kya galat hai, kya sahi,
Kya door hai, kya yahin, kya hoon main, kya nahin.

Maana main nahi hoon, samudra si vishaal,
Parwat si atal, aasmaan si buland.

Maana main nahi hoon, hawaa si mastmaula,
Jharne si chanchal, gulaab si komal.

Main aasmaan bhi nahi, au dharaa bhi nahi hoon,
Had se zyada nahi, par zaraa bhi nahi hoon.

Kaun kahta hai main, duniya me khaas nahi hoon,
Jo pal me toot jaye, main wo vishwaas nahi hoon.

Main aatma hoon, sirf shareer nahi hoon,
Jo kabhi prem na kar paye, wo tasveer nahi hoon.
Mujhe jaanna to itna aasaan nahi hoga,
Par haqikat hoon main, koi takdeer nahi hoon.

Koi kal bhi nahi, koi aaz nahi hoon,
Dil ke taaro se na mil jaye, aisa saaz nahi hoon,
Main yeh bhi nahi, aur weh bhi nahi hoon,
Main sirf "Main" hoon, dafn raaz nahi hoon.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

And it happened today morning...


On few mornings, we see those dreams which are weird yet so beautiful... and today's morning happened with one such beauty.. I wish I could see the climax too, but if I would have seen that, I would have missed the fun of suspense! :))


So, what was this surprising dream about? Do you really wanna know? B'cause this time, this isn't something I need to really hide. After-all, it was just a dream! :D



It started with a phone call..
A known number flashed on my mobile screen.
I picked it up..
And then, a voice came.
The voice was a little shivering..
He said something.. then, played a song..
That was beautiful. A lovely romantic song.. telling the feeling of a person who loves someone passionately.
There was silence in the air, but it said more than any word can say. There were questions in those words, and emotions which deserved an answer. I was too much lost in the songs.. and thoughts of 'him'.
Then another song came up, and then another.. and another..
And I woke up! :( :|

I did get no chance to say anything.
All I wished at that moment was.. that I could sleep a l'il more...! :D

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Independence or Identity?


(August 15th, 2009)

A very happy Independence Day!

A great day really... I need not to say much as most of the things have been said already. I just need to remain firm with my decisions and promises to everyone else and myself!

Its not the single day when I think I'm living in an independent nation with people still not independent from the shackles of identity.

Why India? Why America? Why Pakistan? Why Russia?
Why Boy? Why Girl?
Why Old? Why Young?
Why Hindu? Why Muslim? Why Christian?
Why Black? Why White?

No doubt every coin has its two faces, but when do we forget that being a coin is important... none is interested in heads & tails. Then, why the discrimination here???

We all are same...creatures...existing & living... with thoughts, so that the survival remain continued and a better world with more love can be seen.

Why the 'spirit' need to be searched now? Why people have became too reluctant to worry about anything but themselves? Why they find pleasures in building their castles on the dust of someone's home? Why do they fight and enjoy it at the same time?
Oh please, don't say no one enjoy the fights & terror! Its not the aliens who come and shatter the dreams & hopes of people living on earth!

When every other thing is diagnosed, the root cause of illness still remain ignored! A world without any identity at all is not possible! And if you too believe in this, then a better world's imagination cannot be forever!
If today is not the time, then I promise you & warn you that the time will never come!

I personally hate any sort of identification but I fear that even I'm so bound that I can't ignore the names given to me.
I'm known to every other person & every other is known to me by one or the other way of identity.
Be it identity not here, everything would have same & all the people with same mind & under same category. But then, the world wouldn't have progressed, as no scale would have left for measuring the changes, because even if changes are there, everything would have changed as whole leading no means to trace back the earlier status as no identity is available.

Being with identity is problem!
Not being with identity is also problem!
What should a man do then???

Its never said to ignore identity at all, but its said to remove the discrimination.
To visualize a world that is 'one', this is very important!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Zindagi aur Khwaab


Zindagi aur Khwaab, sab ek nahin hote,
Zindagi to sach hai aur khwaab fasaana.

Zindagi bahut kasi huyi hai
Dard se, bandhanon se,
Ansuljhi gutthiyon se,
Karm ka bojh sir par le,
Jaagna hota hai insaan ko,
Daudna padta hai umra bhar,
Aur fir haar jana hota hai ant mein,
Zindagi bahut kasi huyi hai.

Par khwaab,
Use to koi kabhi samajh hi nahi paaya,
Use koi kabhi samajh bhi nahi sakta,
Use bhala koi kabhi samajhna bhi kyun chahe,
Itni aazadi aur shaanti, bhala aur kahaan hain
Aazadi vichaaron ki,
Aazadi kuch na karne ki,
Aazadi kabhi na jaagne ki,
Aazadi kabhi na haarne ki.

Par kisi raat chahe savera ho na ho,
Jaag hi jaata hai insaan
Pataa nahi kaunse dard se,
Pahchaan kar paana bhi mushkil sa lagta hai
Bas itna samajh aata hai, wo jaag gaya
Kyunki use jaagna hota hai,
Aur jaanna hota hai ek aur sach
Sach jo sabko ek kar deta hai.

Bhala zindagi aur khwaab ek hi to hain
Ek din sabka ant ho jaata hai
Aur ant hi to hai sabse badaa sach.

Mujhe ant ki parwaah nahi
Par khwaab, uska kya karun
Wo to fasaana lagta tha
Aaj wo bhi sach nikla
Pahle di kuch aashaayein,
Aur fir toot ke bikhar gaya
Usne bhi diya dhokha aur dard
Kitna sach hai, kitna sahi
Khwaab bhi kitne kase huye hain.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

A Journey to the Wonderland - Part I

And today, I witnessed the most miraculous, most mysterious, most wonderful dream of my life.

Yes, it was dark…dark and night. I had lived the dream. I was living the dream. Very tired and very bored, irritated and frustrated with the scorching heat of this summer, I kept lying on my bed trying to sleep. Having enough dose of my daily gossips with ‘rjs’ and after listening enough music with them, my mind thought, a part of mine should go to the rest now. Or it should go for a journey. A journey to nowhere but a wonderland where anything and everything is possible. Possible with just a snap of fingers.

I was lying on my bed, still trying to sleep. My cellphone with radio fm playing on it and earphones plunged into my ears, I was lying on my bed. I had enough talk with a friend and rest all was very silent to make sound. I had to do nothing but to sleep. So, I kept lying, my radio still switched on.

I don’t remember exactly in which hour of night, I actually fell asleep, but it might be midnight after 1 or 2. I was sleeping, with music flowing through my ears. And a part of my mind slept. It was ready for the journey. The journey to the Wonderland.


Unless I have not seen the dream, unless the journey has not started, I had no idea that the wonderland begins at my home. My own home. And my own room, with the bed on which I was sleeping. Or trying to sleep with earphones plunged into my ears with music flowing through them. Yes, that was the time, when my mind partly slept. It is a bit tough to understand. As sleeping and dreaming is a complexly infinitely running process. As it is the imaging in two opposite mirrors. As it is the traveling through time stations. Yet, we go with it. As a journey has to be completed. A destiny must be reached.

When I was sleeping, or the part of my mind was sleeping, everything was still and calm as it is supposed to be. The only sound I knew that time was of my fm radio.

Everything was intact. We all siblings in one room. My mother in another. And father along with my grandfather in his room. All were sleeping and might be living their own dreams. Heat was tough and burning and irresistible to us. In spite of the fact that the air coolers were on, we pray, it would be better if it were winters. But we did not bother much. It rained a little in the evening and night will get more cooled with its darkness. So, we slept. Slept in the utmost silence. It was till then, that everything was intact.

And then the journey began. A journey I remember when I’m awake. A journey which I’ll remember throughout my life.

I was sleeping in my room. Everything was intact and then, suddenly, a roaring sound came. A sound I knew was from nowhere. But it was. That sound was bold and loud, very loud. With earphones plugged, in my ears, I tried to pretend myself that I did not hear anything but the words coming from earplugs. But the truth has a different path. And I had to take it to proceed the journey.

I kept lying pretending nothing happened, but everything was not intact. I saw my siblings sleeping. I don’t know if they too were just pretending like me. To me, they were sleeping. I might have not known, whether the people in other rooms were sleeping or are in same hole of mystery where I was, if my Papa had not got up and leave his bed in a moment.

Just after the moment, we heard the great roaring, my Papa ran into my room to make sue that everything is intact, everything is safe, everything is secure. He saw three children drowned in their sleep as if nothing happened. But don’t know how, he found that one eye was open. He found the plugs in my ear and my fingers on my cellphone. Afraid with the mysterious roaring and unwanting to accept that everything is not intact, I switched off the radio on my phone. And then he knew which eye it was. It was none but me. In mystery and surprise, he asked me without wasting a moment, if I heard something. I was confused, and as surprised as he was. But I had to make an answer.

Being afraid of my own thoughts, I told him It’s nothing to worry. I don’t know, to whom I was giving console, when I myself was afraid. But as I did not want to accept the roar, I tried to postpone the matter. I told Papa that the roar may just be of any animal. Things may make sound; even the doors and windows can make great noise when wind struck them, but if you think it’s suspicious, consider it the roar of any tiger or cat. Unconvinced with my answer, my father left the room. And unconvinced with my own answer, I kept lying on my bed. I just did not want to untie a knot. I did not want to solve any mystery. For me, wonders are most beautiful on earth.

But the journey cannot be halted unless the destiny is achieved. So, I kept lying on the bed and tried to sleep. At some moment of time, I knew, I had to get up. I suddenly opened my eyes again and leapt on my feet. I was excited and wanted to know if Papa had solved the mystery. I stepped out of my room. A sudden ‘shhhh…’ entered my ears from a distance and my steps froze. The dull, silent environment, as if some CBI officers had entered the home to arrest a criminal and they are taking their steps with utmost silence and precautions, so that the criminal may not get alert and ran wildly anywhere, spread across the rooms. My eyes were wide opened on my weary face. So as the face of Papa could be seen. He was standing at the inside gallery amidst all rooms. He was at a meter distance from me but could see something which no other eye could. He said it’s just a l’il creature and he’ll show him the way out. I was making my mind to step inside my room again when he again said something. He told me to move to the hall, so that I can have the company of my mother and can find relief from the hotness of the weather. I moved towards the hall. It was undoubtedly cooler than nay other room. When I walked through the other end of hall, I found some figure lying on the sofa, some on floor, all covered with sheets or blankets. I felt the room was chilling enough for it. But on moving closer, I found their eyes wide opened. Their face pale and their hands clenching an end of their white blanket sheets, they thought it would be better if they don’t tell me now. I was not in hurry. For me the wonders are most beautiful. I looked around the hall and found the front main door wide open. It was dark outside. And the breeze was colder. Rarely do we open that door when it’s dark. I found it romantic and wonderful and got out of the hall.


The journey had to show me more than I thought.


(to be continued...)


Praised Lord of Star!


Just a few words... its not for the praise of a great friend Alfan... its just a l'il gift for him which tells what he is....

The day is remembered,
Even by the history,
The day still unsolved,
The day still a mystery.

The hills echoing carols,
The aureole shimmering bright,
When the Lord landed on earth,
The universe filled with light.

Born to chase triumphs,
Sworn to ne'er desist,
To portend the Lord's grandeur,
The epics can't resist.

Nourished by the stars,
Imbibed with naivety,
Befriend to astrayed,
Connoisseur for subtlety.

A bijou, reckless & robust,
A soul, solicitous & wise,
To extol Lord's tacit zenith,
The words may not suffice....

(to be continued...)

For the 'Chosen One'


That is You...
A drop in the rain,
A healer in the pain,
A fellow for alone,
The Chosen soul.

That is You..
A sweet chum,
Difficult and lazy,
But a bijou so worthy,
Amusing and crazy.

That is you...
A step in the miles,
Spreading smiles,
A beginning to an end,
A true Friend...

Yes it is YOU...

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Countless tears and I'm drowned !!!


Broken, depressed and lost. Unsatisfied with everything and myself, deceived with my love and seized in endless fear....I shed these tears and they too get evaporated leaving me alone with my loneliness.

I'm all bitter; filled with anger, jealousy and hatred; tired of my own duplicity and wearing the mask of a playful smile. I feel haunted. I feel no sense, no time, no pithy. I just cry and cry and cry out aloud; until I feel every stone of my heart shaken. I see my surroundings and cry out aloud. I find no light, no life around me. I wait for the rain to hide my tears. I stretch my hands with eyes full of expectations. But rain show two drops and go away at a distance again. I feel like that too is laughing on me; it feels pity; tells me to look upon myself; and again burst into laughter. It taunts me, 'Oh! You are the great mahatma who wants to replace my job! Good! Good! Keep trying!' And I burst once again into tears.

I tell God, why you gave me all this. And he merely replies, 'That's all you'd ask for!' i feel helpless. I want to go to my chums, but they're all filled with sympathy; and just and only sympathy. And I find no shoulder to cry upon. I'm very angry with myself. I'm irritated and frustrated. So, I make mistakes; I make sins. I show hatred to everyone. I sweep the smile away. I see everyone with same dark spectacles; and no one ever looks fair to me.

I feel grudge. I feel regret for everything I did and did not. Why did not I understand that earlier? Why did not I say it earlier? Why did not I do it earlier? Why was I so...??? And it goes on forever like this. I feel pity. I feel loneliness. Then, all the fear come and start eating me up. What if this all never stop? What if I never talk to them again? What if they never remember me? What if they never listen listen to me? What if they discard me for everything? What if I never find love? What if I never find peace??? And I keep fighting with my fears and myself...!

I'm still fighting... but I know I'm not gonna always!
Let God's judgement win again...!!!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Love you Ma, Love you Papa


For my loving parents...
(on their 25th wedding anniversary)
April 19th, 2009


Ishwar ki di deh ko insaan banaya aapne,
Hamaare saath apna ek chhota sansaar sajaaya aapne,
Jeevan diya aapne, jeena sikhaya aapne,
Kaise insaan bane khubsoorat nageena, sikhaya aapne,

Khud jitni bhi mushkilein ho, aap sadaa muskuraate rahe,
Hamein har khushi ko khushi se baantna sikhaya aapne,
Kitna pyar aap karte hain hum sab se,
Hamein insaaniyat se pyar karna sikhaya aapne,

Aapne apne jeevan me koi jashn na manaaya,
Hamein jeevan ka jashn manaana sikhaya aapne,
Kitne pal nyochhavar kiye, aapne din-raat hamaare liye,
Hamein aasmaan ki bulandiyaan chhuna sikhana aapne,

Aapne apne sapne hamaari aankhon me dekhe,
Sapne hakeekat karne ki himmat, jutaana sikhaya aapne,
Aapko kuch kah sakein hum, itne to shabda bhi nahi,
Apni bhavnayein vyakta karna sikhaya aapne,

Aaj hum jo bhi hain, bas aapki duayein hain,
Yoon garva se seena uthana, bhi sikhaya aapne,
Jeevan diya aapne, jeena sikhaya aapne...